After the christmas presents list, the food list, the things to be done list there comes – the new year list.

Things on the health front are better, perhaps as good as they will be. K’s bout was a bit of a wake up call for how things are likely to be in the future. I think we coped ok, but if every day was a carer day it is going to be hard.

I bought a diary, discounted obviously as we are now into the early days of 2026. My aims are essentially to do more (see people, get up earlier, exercise, less screen time, learn something). This is ironic as I’ve just told K how I don’t think I can keep going like this, I feel like the family are a bit stuck and I’m the one always pulling, prompting, cajouling. Now I’m not sure on the spelling of cajouling for the sort of niggling people along, this could be the rainwear spelling.

Maybe my thinking is that if I have more time (up early and not on screens) and energy (cos I’ll be fitter) then I can do the necessary things and still have space for other things. Will that work, or am I just going to frustrate myself into a black hole with a black dog.

I’m not good at sticking with things which is a concern. Unless it is an everyday thing, which I can do – once completing 100 burpees each day for a month, even during a caravan holiday.

I bought 3 egg timers to try and help us with focus… one is lost already.

Good things – we are all going to see a show today, the weather is crisp and beautiful, Stranger Things is finished and I’ll never have to watch it again.